venetia_sassy: (MCR // Frank SMILES!)
to whom it may interest...

greetings friends and acquaintances, on-lookers and rubberneckers, enemies and indifferents, believers and fakers,

i needed to take some time to myself this past week. i felt a moment (or maybe a few moments) of silence was deserved and required. it was my intention to let the dust settle a bit, not form, on the recent mychem announcement. a large chunk of my life (jeez, almost half my life) was devoted to that band and all that went with it, and i felt a week of quiet reflection was the least i could do to honor it and all involved.

i have written, deleted and rewritten this letter way too many times than i care to remember. i am not much for eulogies so i will keep this short and to the point. i don't believe in holding back your feelings or emotions until it is too late. if you did not appreciate someone or something while they were still here then you have no business expressing cute anecdotes when they are no longer around to enjoy them. in the 12 years i have been in mcr i believe i have said all i needed and wanted to say about it when it counted. if you know me or have ever listened to me speak about mychem you know what it meant to me. i lived, breathed, and bled the band. i believed in and admired the things we created and the people that were involved in it (members and fans alike). for better or worse i held nothing back that i felt needed to be expressed. i loved my band with all i had and i have no regrets now that it is done. we began, we lived and we ended mcr for all the right reasons.

if you were there you know how truly special a time it was...and if you weren't, well then you probably wish you were.

thank you all for the memories, my scrapbook is overflowing and my heart is excruciatingly full.

now on to the next…
venetia_sassy: (MCR // Best smiles!)

A Vigil, On Birds and Glass

I actually cried reading this. Okay. This is better. It still sucks, it's sad, but it's okay.
venetia_sassy: (101 Dalmatians // woeful puppies)

It seems that recently:

1) Fans think the Toros may have had a baby but Ray hasn't confirmed or denied.

2a) Mikey and Alicia might be divorcing/separated and Mikey has already moved on without telling Alicia and she found out via fans.


2b) Mikey has been cheating on Alicia and she found out via fans.


2c) Something else is going on but we as fans don't know the relationships involved.

I am not comfortable with any of this.

For 1), if Ray and Christa ever have a child, I will be be happy for them. I will not believe they have a child until they say so. It is their business and their decision as to when to announce it.

As to what's going on with Mikey and Alicia and Sarah ... honestly, I'm cringing that anything about this was public. Bad move on everyone's part. But if strangers sent photo links to Alicia? NOT COOL. Nobody likes the neighbourhood busybody.

What do I think about Mikey right now? Well, about the same that I did the other day, really. Why? Because I don't know what happened. I'm not going to base my opinion of someone on rumours or a few tweets. When the dust settles, we'll see what's really going on.

I've wondered whether I should join Twitter again (I tried it once, in the early days. I lost interest.) I know I miss out of some of the squee but then I saw this mess ...

I don't like rumours, I don't like gossip and I don't like public discussions of people's personal lives.

I love reading biographies of historical figures, will happily analyse fictional characters' motivations and backgrounds, and sort of combine that with RPF of 'public personas.' But digging into people's private lives is not okay, I don't care how famous they are.

Mikey may have cheated on his wife. That sucks. But it's not my business. And even if that's how it happened, it doesn't change all the things I like about him. (If it turned out he was a serial cheater dickhead, that would.) And you know what? It could turn out that one of the other guys has cheated at some point. Or one of their wives has cheated. Or something else upsetting to our image of them. Because we don't know them.

We see their public personas. We are their fans, not their friends, and they are not obligated to share every detail of their lives with us. They are real people, flawed and fucked up and they make mistakes.

Am I sad that my mental image of a band with four happily married guys is smeared? Yes. But that was my mental image. I never knew the reality. I still don't.

Really, my main question after all this is, 'I wonder if "Aww, pickles" is Gerard's kid-safe version of 'Oh, shit"?'

venetia_sassy: (MCR // Best smiles!)

I'm still exhausted but, thanks to hot showers and judicious use of the heatpack, not too sore now.

That was a pretty amazing night. I'm just going to babble, okay?

The setlist was the same as for the Brisbane sideshow - 21 songs! The only ones I'm a little fuzzy in recollecting are Our Lady of Sorrows and Give 'Em Hell, Kid and since I get some of the earlier songs mixed up, I'm not surprised. Don't ask me what happened when because I was too busy trying watch and listen and dance and not fall over to remember things that clearly.

Gerard - sexiest dork! He was prancing around the stage, blowing kisses, licking his hand, doing 'parade steps' during WWTBP and I swear he was skipping at one point. They released giant balloons during Planetary (Go!) and Gerard popped several, getting glitter all over himself. He was down on his knees and singing more than once. But during Cancer, a vague thought I had at the BDO reoccurred much more forcibly. Gerard was up on the dark stage, all in black, spotlit from behind, arms extended, head up, glowing - and I'm thinking, 'Someone's written an AU with Gerard the revivalist preacher, right? Possibly of his own religion. Seriously, someone's written this, right?!'

Ray - I couldn't see much of Ray this time, which was a shame. I did get a partial view of his solo as he was arching back very nicely - and I'm thinking 'I WANT AN UNOBSTRUCTED VIEW, PLEASE. Damn.' Apparently he came out for the encore smoking a cigarette? I missed that.

Mikey - still too cool for school, Rockstar Bassist, even without the sunglasses. He was leaning back so far he seemed to be horizontal at times. All angles and lines, long, loooong lines of Mikeyway. Nghh.

Frank - I couldn't see as much of Frank this time, either, but he did seem to be moving around more. He was wearing the cardigan but maybe only one layer underneath? He took the cardigan off as he left the stage, revealing a long-sleeved red and white t-shirt, then used the cardigan to mop the sweat off his face. Oh, Frank. Also, I've always been surprised at the number of Orgasm Face photos of Frank out there. Um, yeah, I'm not surprised any more. Jesus, Frank.

I didn't see the brother hug between the Ways but I did see Mikey grin at Gerard. Full out grin and it was gorgeous! Also, Frank, Mikey and Gerard having a little huddle before one of the early songs. At one point Gerard had the crowd shout 'Hi, Charlotte!' to someone who was ill and couldn't make it to the show. He also went off on a tangent about the deliciousness of orange juice and how he was just going to drink it straight from the jug but he thought he should show a bit of class and drink it from a cup. There was also something about the jug guy who kept the cups filled but I had people screaming in my ear so I got a bit confused. Then Gerard's saying, 'Now you know all our secrets.' I mentioned sexiest dork, right?

The crowd was pretty intense, more so than the BDO, I would guess for several reasons. At the BDO:
1) A lot of people had already seen other bands and were hot and tired already.
2) It was hot and humid to start with.
3) The crowd wasn't composed entirely of die-hard fans.
4) The stage was higher so people weren't quite as crazed about getting to the front.

I was about ten rows back, almost centre, to start with but during the first half of the show I was getting shoved around between 10-20 rows back. A lot of people were getting out, on their own or being lifted out. Gerard reminded everyone after the first and second songs to pick people up if they fell down and take care of each other and would we promise to do that? Everyone yelled yes, of course, and mostly people seemed to be good about that. I might have tried to get out, except that I wanted to see the band not just hear them and being short, I had to be near the front for that. But I was within a few metres of the stage by the encore and I'm glad I wasn't any closer! People were still being really pushed around at the barrier. Ow. I nearly fell more than once and it was hard to concentrate on the music at times but it was still an experience! I was completely soaked in sweat when it was over, long braid and all.

I met up with Pip (we got separated in the pit) and to her, it hadn't been that intense. She actually left the pit during the slower songs because 'they weren't as much fun to dance to' but she is considerably taller, stronger and fitter than I am! And her idea of 'too much' is the kind of pit her husband enjoys - last show he was at, he emerged minus his shirt, jeans half-shredded, bruises everywhere, saying, 'that was awesome!' ... no, thank you. No.

We had avoided the parking station and instead walked back across the park across from the equestrian centre to a side street. It was lovely and cool and quiet and when we got to the car, I stripped off my wringing wet shirt and put on my new merch shirt (which was also soaked by the time we got home.)

The only real suck of the night? Was losing one of my merch shirts in the pit. At the BDO, I saw a black tshirt with the Wanted pictures of the Killjoys but they were sold out of my size, so I was hoping they'd have it at the sideshow. They did and I bought it along with a grey My Chem shirt before the show and tied them to the straps of my little bag. By the time the lights came up, the black shirt was long gone and the stand was sold out (hence why I had bought it beforehand.) *sigh* Someone bagged a free shirt and I'm out of pocket for the shirt I really wanted. Oh well.

It's all done! No more shows for me. *sadface* If I had the money, I would so follow them to Adelaide. I am so glad I got to see them.


venetia_sassy: (MCR // Best smiles!)
It stopped raining, instead it was hot and so humid (I believe at one point, Gerard was telling us not to pass out, guys!) I managed to get dead centre, 6-8 rows back, excellent view for the most part (couple of tall guys shoved in towards the end, couldn't see Mikey much after that.)

1) Words for Gerard: charismatic, passionate, gorgeous. The hair is surprisingly okay in person.
2) Ray has the best smile!
3) Mikeyway: too cool for school, Rockstar Bassist.
4) Frank, when you've sweated through two layers of clothing, it might be time to remove the third layer. Just a suggestion. (Seriously, I would not have been at all surprised if he'd passed out from heat exhaustion up there. He didn't move around much and he seemed to be alternating between two expressions - Guitar Orgasm and I Don't Feel So Good, Might Fall Over.)

It was so bizarre for a moment, seeing them in person and realising, oh, hey, they're real. They're not an invention of the fannish consciousness!

... that's pretty awesome.

venetia_sassy: (MCR // Best smiles!)

Less than 48 hours until MCR perform at the BDO!

I'm letting myself get excited now. I've been trying not to think too much about it because, honestly, I've been feeling so sick this month, I've been afraid I wouldn't make it to either show. Last week I was thinking I might make it to the sideshow but the BDO was out. Then I was thinking that I might make the BDO provided it wasn't too hot (well, no. It's going to be 25C and raining. Mud ahoy!)

Now? I think I'm going to make it to both! Taking the train to Olympic Park, hopefully meeting some fellow fangirls, watching just the MCR set, then going directly home. Rest, sleep, rest, go with Pip to the sideshow. It's looking hopeful!

Watching The Kids From Yesterday vid made me want to see them all the more. (I teared up watching this which left me going ... wtf self?)


And I rather love [personal profile] rosalui's original vid with the voiceovers, too.


I'm going to get to see these guys live.

*g* That's fucking awesome.

venetia_sassy: (MCR // Best smiles!)
I feel there are times when the only thing you can say is 'GERARD WAY.'

Okay, also 'Gerard, look out, you have devil hair!'

Gerard is wearing a long-sleeved, black and white striped shirt on stage (in Brisbane. In summer. And Frank is wearing his grandpa cardigan. Okay, the weather's been uneven this summer but still. Wtf?) while backstage, Mikey Way is wearing a long-sleeved, black and white striped hoodie. Over his tiger-print shirt. While Gerard wears khaki and shows some chest hair.



venetia_sassy: (MCR // Frank SMILES!)
Judging by my flist, I went to bed just before the epic video of adorableness appeared. Damn. But it did mean that I woke up to a flist full of posts about the how MCR are the most adorable, dorky, earnest band ever.

These are scary, badass rockstars, people. Uh huh.

I laughed so hard watching that, I nearly choked. Be more bouncy, Ray! Smile a little wider, Frankie! Be more earnest, Gerard! Be ... slightly more enthusiastic, Mikey! If you can. If it won't make you sprain anything.

I made caramels for the first time today! These soft chocolate caramels, using Lindt 70% dark. I just tried a piece and OMG, they taste gooey, chewy brownie batter, OMG. I love brownie batter.

Making them was remarkably easy. I just put everything in a pot and stirred until it was the right temperature/consistency. It did take a while because I was very cautious about turning up the heat at first (we have an old electric stove that can be a bit tricksy.) Using the candy thermometer was a bit tricky because the saucepan I was using had a lip so I couldn't clip it on. But I also used the glass of water test and yes, it all seems to have worked! Now, I just have to cut them up ...

On the downside, I did manage to burn myself with the caramel. Just a small burn on my left index finger but it has blistered and it hurts. But I've cooled it, applied ointment and a loose bandage and taken some ibuprofen (which doesn't seem to have kicked in yet but oh well.)

However I can console myself with adorable dorky rock stars and the brownie batter caramels (I think they should be renamed. Mmmm.)
venetia_sassy: (MLP // shake it off)
I just laughed myself into hiccups watching this.

venetia_sassy: (MCR // Frank SMILES!)
Okay, I'm about halfway through writing my Panic recap but I had to break off for this:



I have no idea how much BDO tickets will be but I guess I'd better start saving ...



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