venetia_sassy: (MCR // Best smiles!)
Before I forget again, thank you for the cards, [personal profile] littlerhymes and [personal profile] turlough!

The cat was napping under the Christmas tree - acceptable and adorable, he does it every year. But for the first time he thought he might use the tree as a scratching post. There were some alarming wobbles before we dissuaded him. You would not have enjoyed the aftermath, cat.

Stayed hot until about 2p.m. to day. Then it was quite pleasant for about an hour - until the rain started. It hasn't stopped yet! Better than bushfires.

Had a CAT scan of my sinuses today. Fastest scan I've ever had; apparently the technology's improved (for mammograms too. Mum says there's less painful squishing which is good to hear since I should start having those soon.) Last CAT scan I had took about 20 minutes or more, not 2 minutes. I'm a little vague about that whole experience since I'd just started on Topamax for my ghastly possibly-migraines and I was zonked for the first week or so. But I remember lying in the machine listening to the various clunks, clicks and whirs and starting to hear rhythms in them and just as I felt I was about to recognise one it would break off and start over or a different one would start. I could have sworn one of them sounded like the live intro to an MCR song but I couldn't get hold of it for long enough.

... yeah, I was pretty out of it, although my brain tends to do that sort of thing anyway.

Spot of mildly successful Christmas shopping (so many shinies I wanted ...), present wrapping tonight, need to bake something, last Christmas market tomorrow. Hope it's not pouring!

So much tea

Dec. 9th, 2015 11:53 pm
venetia_sassy: (Images // tea)
Money woes  )

It was stinking hot today, my sinuses are giving me hell and I'm blowing my nose much I look like I've been weeping.

Not a great day. And my GR just took over a dozen new greyhounds, they are crammed full and there are so many more they can't take. Trainers are shedding dogs after the live-baiting scandals - but they love their dogs, right? I desperately want another one but we can't even afford to foster a third right now. *sigh*

Here's a happy thing. I know the person who adopted this adorable boy after he'd been waiting for months, shipped around to different RSPCAs trying to find him a home. He has a lovely home now with a greyhound sister.

venetia_sassy: (101 Dalmatians // happy puppies!)
Went for a walk with the dogs and Mum today for the first time in three weeks! Mum's knee starting to feel better was good timing - the dogs would have been going nuts otherwise, even if they are low-energy. I've been walking them by myself for most of the year, what with the stress fractures in Mum's foot, then her knee going out. But her foot is just fine now and the podiatrist says her knee should be entirely better by the end of the year.

Books of June

Underline: Greatly enjoyed; highly recommend.
Strikethrough: Did not like; do not recommend.

Shipwrecks: Australia's Greatest Maritime Disasters by Evan McHugh

The Deadly Sisterhood: A story of Women, Power and Intrigue in the Italian Renaissance by Leonie Frieda (utter mess)

Travels With A Medieval Queen by Mary Taylor-Simeti

The Replacement by Brenna Yovanoff (intriguing ideas; boring execution)

Graveminder by Melissa Marr (see above)

River Marked (Mercy Thompson, #6) by Patricia Briggs

Frost Burned (Mercy Thompson, #7) by Patricia Briggs

Troll Fell by Katherine Langrish

Variant X by Susan Robinson

Psy-Changeling rereads in preparation for the new book.

Slave to Sensation (Psy/Changeling #1)
Visions of Heat (Psy/Changeling #2)
Caressed By Ice (Psy/Changeling #3)
Mine to Possess (Psy/Changeling #4)
Hostage to Pleasure (Psy/Changeling #5)
Branded by Fire (Psy/Changeling #6)
Blaze of Memory (Psy/Changeling #7)
Bonds of Justice (Psy/Changeling #8)
Play of Passion (Psy/Changeling #9)
Kiss of Snow (Psy/Changeling #10)
Tangle of Need (Psy/Changeling #11)
Heart of Obsidian (Psy/Changeling #12)
Whisper of Sin
in the Burning Up Anthology
Wild Invitation: A Psy/Changeling Anthology

Shield of Winter (Psy/Changeling, #13) by Nalini Singh

Uh, these judgements are based on my Nora Roberts standards and preferences which may or may not relate to my standards for other books. I don't know, I've read and reread almost every NR/J.D. Robb book out there which is well over a hundred by now. They've kept me sane throught some very bad brain fog times.

Dark Witch (The Cousins O'Dwyer Trilogy, #1) by Nora Roberts

Shadow Spell (The Cousins O'Dwyer Trilogy, #2) by Nora Roberts

The Collector by Nora Roberts

Nora Roberts rereads -
Northern Lights
The Witness
(one of only two NR heroes I utterly loathed. BOUNDARIES! RESPECT THEM!)
Morrigan's Cross (Fantasy is not NR's forte. It's okay as little bits of the book but not as the whole.)
The Search
Black Hills
Midnight Bayou

Vision in White (Bride Quartet #1)
Bed of Roses (Bride Quartet #2)
Savor The Moment (Bride Quartet #3)
Happy Ever After (Bride Quartet #4)

Key of Light (Key Trilogy #1)
Key of Knowledge (Key Trilogy #2)
Key of Valour (Key Trilogy #3)
venetia_sassy: (101 Dalmatians // happy puppies!)
I left the house today for the first time in two and half weeks - excepting the two visits to the doctor for the cold-turned-bacterial infection, plus raging allergic reaction to the first lot of antibiotics. Fun! Mum's knee has been doing better so she was able to walk the dogs sometimes - when it wasn't raining. Poor hounds, they did get a bit bored. But we went to the market today, mostly buying things that don't require much cooking since I'm still wiped out. The hounds had many cuddles, both from new people and regular admirers. Then we stopped at a pet supply store on the way home and along with necessities, we bought two new squeaky toys - a fluffy pink and brown ... apatosaurus? for Miss Shadow and a glossy blue and orange triceratops for Mr Nosey. There were many happy squeakings this afternoon.

Books of May

Underline: Greatly enjoyed; highly recommend.
Strikethrough: Did not like; do not recommend.

The Tyranny of Distance: How Distance Shaped Australia's History by Geoffrey Blainey

Australian Children Through 200 Years by Suzane Fabian

Australian Transport Through Two Hundred Years by Brian Carroll

The Bounty: The True Story of the Mutiny on the Bounty by Caroline Alexander

In the Heart of the Sea: The Epic True Story That Inspired Moby-Dick by Nathaniel Philbrick

Hen Frigates: Wives Of Merchant Captains Under Sail by Joan Druett

Bite Me (Pride, #9) by Shelly Laurenston


Silver Borne (Mercy Thompson, #5) by Patricia Briggs

A Bite to Remember (Argeneau, #5) by Lynsay Sands

Mercy Thompson and Alpha and Omega rereads

Moon Called (Mercy Thompson, #1)
Blood Bound (Mercy Thompson, #2)
Iron Kissed (Mercy Thompson, #3)
Bone Crossed (Mercy Thompson, #4)
Cry Wolf (Alpha & Omega, #1)
Hunting Ground (Alpha & Omega, #2)
Fair Game (Alpha & Omega, #3)
Alpha & Omega
short stories in On the Prowl and Strange Brew
venetia_sassy: (101 Dalmatians // woeful puppies)
My health has been utterly for shit this year and every time it seems to be getting better, something else goes wrong. I am Not Pleased. That is not say that everything this year has been awful, there have been a number of good things but I remain mostly incoherent with the brain fog so writing is difficult.

I have joined Tumblr - [ profile] venetia-sassy - and liking and reblogging is soothing and grants a (minimal) degree of fannish interaction at least. I've found several of you over there; if there's anyone else, let me know?

To try to get back to posting here again, month-by-month catch-ups for the Wednesday Reading Meme.

Underline: Greatly enjoyed; highly recommend.
Strikethrough: Did not like; do not recommend.

Remaining books of February

The Balloonists: The History of the First Aeronauts by L.T.C Rolt
Did you know that during the Siege of Paris 1870-71, balloons were used to airlift people and mail out of Paris? I did not know that.

The Doctor Wore Petticoats: Women Physicians of the Old West by Chris Enss

The Women's West by Susan H. Armitage (Editor), Elizabeth Jameson

Rereads of Ngaio Marsh's Inspector Alleyn mysteries. I think I read most of them. I still don't have the last two omnibuses with the final five novels.
venetia_sassy: (Words // gone are the dogs)
I have been feeling like hell for the last ten days or so and I have no idea why. I was coping reasonably well with the heatwave but as soon as the temperature dropped, it was as though my body went, 'Oh, time to collapse.' Really not helpful.

Then on Saturday, it was the first farmer's market of the year (they usually don't hold any in January but due to how the dates worked out, there was only one in December.) I hadn't slept well and had a bit of a headache but we went along. I didn't have much money and it was a smaller market than usual so we didn't stay too long. The dogs had plenty of pats, we talked to a few people about greyhounds, bought two kinds of plums, some cherry truss tomatoes, milk and a chicken and peach bake for dinner. Then we came home, I fell into bed with a vicious headache, woke up with a headache, and I've basically been sleeping 8 hours, waking 8 hours (and not doing much because I'm so tired), sleeping 8 hours, since then.

I feel a bit better today, managed to take the dogs for a brief walk (Mum took them without me one day but they have been deprived they tell you, DEPRIVED, since Saturday.)

I would like to know what's going on here but there's probably nothing to know. *sigh*

At this point, I'm just going to post that Day 4 of Snowflake is done and that's that for the year. I'm glad I did some of it, at least.

Day 4

Comment to someone you haven't ever interacted with before or introduce yourself to someone you've interacted with and friend/follow them. Afterwards, leave a comment in this post with the equivalent of "I did it!"

It doesn't have to be anything complex - it can be feedback for a fanwork or discussing something you might have in common or even simply admiring their icon. The point is to reach out to someone you normally wouldn't and connect with them, even if it's only for the briefest moment.
venetia_sassy: (MLP // shake it off)
Christmas decorations taken down. *sadface* Although we haven't dismantled the Christmas tree yet, everything else is in boxes.

Getting my (upper) wisdom teeth out tomorrow. It's supposed to be a straightforward extraction, so minimal recovery time - I hope. The wisdom teeth aren't causing any problems at the moment but they're growing more sideways than down and my dentist thinks they are likely to cause problems in the future. Given all the expensive and successful treatment she's done over the last twelve months to correct my jaw alignment, TMJ syndrome and chronic tension headaches, I'm inclined to listen.

I get ice-cream, yes?


Jun. 12th, 2013 11:52 pm
venetia_sassy: (Images // tea)
I have realised that I haven't posted in over two months ... this was not on purpose. How are people? The last two and half months, briefly:

Horrendous post-exertion fatigue from Melbourne for a couple of weeks, started to recover, caught a vicious cold which knocked me out for another fortnight or so, then wretched PMS and period, started to improve, hit with first full-blown migraine of the year, more headaches, disrupted sleep cycle, brain fog, generally feeling like crap. But I think I'm starting to feel better overall.

Life has not been hugely exciting, apart from walking the dogs, going to the farmer's markets (with dogs) and various doctor's appointments (not with dogs.) I did go to see a performance of Hamlet (good performance but hard to enjoy since the migraine started during the play), saw another Opera Live in HD (Giulio Cesare, awesome, except for the post-movie headache) and went to SinpOzium (fucking awesome, except for eating something which disagreed with me, resulting in middle of the night vomiting and an uneasy stomach for two days.)

I currently have no computer and am sharing Mum's and our internet connection is being sporadically dodgy for no apparent reason. It feels like the computer is playing mind games with us.

Miss Shadow is fine and lovely and adorable and she just passed her Greenhounds assessment so as soon as her new green collar and tag arrive, she can go muzzle-free in public!

The Boyo ... is not so well. Didn't we just go through this with Lady Muck? Our last cattle dog lived to SEVENTEEN. The Boyo is only twelve and a half. It might be weeks or it might be days and I hate watching him and wondering if it's time yet. But he's been so happy and enjoying life so much since we adopted Miss Shadow and I'm so very glad for that.

State of me

Apr. 7th, 2013 01:41 am
venetia_sassy: (MLP // shake it off)
Ow, fuck, everything hurts.

Melbourne was amazing but my body is exacting revenge in no uncertain terms. Swollen lymph nodes, sore muscles, aching joints, my bones hurt. My brain is gone. I hope it doesn't seem like I'm ignoring anyone but I have so very little energy right now (and EVERYTHING HURTS, ow, fuck) and that energy is going into looking after the greyhound - now to be known here as Miss Shadow and things are going pretty well with her at least! Except that we have learned that her boredom threshold on rainy days in pretty low. We have learned this at the expense of several plastic folders, the corner of a nice cane chair (we were out for that one), the corner of a old wooden bookcase and her collar. While she was wearing it.

See the face of innocence? )
venetia_sassy: (101 Dalmatians // happy puppies!)
A few days of cooler weather, being awake during daylight hours, a little bit of energy and I want to do All The Things! I keep getting up to do All The Things and have to to remind myself to sit down, rest, take it easy, because if I do All The Things today, I won't be able to do A Single Damned Thing tomorrow.

But I've still made major progress on my bedroom. Not just a quick dust and tidy up but a thorough clean out. Also started reading The Invention of Murder by Judith Flanders, one of my other birthday books! Brain fog lifting slightly ...? I still want to do one more Snowflake post but not tonight I don't think.

Tomorrow's going to be on the unpleasantly warm side (though not scorching) so I won't expect Many Things but maybe a Few. I hope!

P.S. We might be adopting another dog. Who? When? Where? Not sure yet! 
venetia_sassy: (101 Dalmatians // woeful puppies)

The dentist I went to today wasn't my regular dentist but a specialist in treating TMJ Syndrome, recommended by my osteopath. The jaw-clenching has improved a little but it's still happening and the temporary mouthguards haven't corrected the problem.

Yes, the dentist was able to find all the sore spots in my mouth, jaw, head and neck, yes, a more thorough treatment (of occlusal overlays and a individualised splint) is a good idea.

Including today's appointment, this is all going to be costing me at least $1800 over the next few months.

Excuse me while I quietly hyperventilate in a corner.

(I also have appointments coming up with my osteo, allergist and doctor. At least I get partial refunds on those?)

Well, this squashes or significantly delays a number of half-formed plans I had for the next few months. But I did discuss the costs with the dentist and whether I could just do one or the other but given that I have always been prone to headaches, that the jaw-clenching seems to be a response to pain from other kinds of headaches and that this could stop one problem before it gets far worse, I think the more thorough treatment is worth it. It's not a 'get well quick' scheme for CFS, it's a recommended treatment for TMJ Syndrome. Effectively it's a long term investment that will hopefully get rid of a significant cause of pain and fatigue in my life.

I still flinched at the cost though.

On the way back from the dentist (which is an hour's drive away) we stopped at a shopping centre so Mum could pick up the third book she meant to give me for Christmas (The Killer of Little Shepherds: A True Crime Story and the Birth of Forensic Science) but didn't arrive in time. We also had lunch (very nice 'Provencal' quiche and apple and guava juice) and having realised my immediate lack of funds, I stopped to just browse at the Chalet kitchenware stall but they were having a sale and Mum got sucked in (the saleswoman was very good) and okay, I'll get that silicone prep mat with measurements on it while it's on sale (I really wanted one of those while I was doing the Christmas baking. Mum: 'Oh, is that why my ruler kept ending up in the kitchen?!') And a new knife.

Then, as previously planned, we stopped at the bank where I did some transactions and, somewhat to my amusement, set up the other savings account I'd been wanting for a while. Ah, timing.

venetia_sassy: (101 Dalmatians // woeful puppies)
But hey, no bushfires in the are so at least there was no smoke or worries about evacuation. I'll take that as a positive.

The cat was Not Impressed with us since we wouldn't let him outside to get heatstroke or a heat-induced asthma attack. He wandered around the house, wowling and yowling in complaint for quite some time. Mum did manage to shut him up for a while by retrieving the cat carrier from the garage and putting it by the back door. Cat took one look, retreated to the living room and stayed very quiet for a few hours.

The Boyo managed fairly well with his Polar collar. The cooling mat I'd bought for him earlier at not insignificant cost finally got some use as  cooling blanket. (Even with the mat being noticeably cooler and softer than the tiles, where does the dog lie? Yep.)

As for me, I stayed up as late as I could, so I could try to sleep through the worst of it. The house was hot and stuffy but bearable when I got up (and significantly cooler than outdoors) and I thought we were managing well - until the power went out around 10p.m.

Not very surprising but OMG. Seconds after the fans stopped moving the house went from 'uncomfortable' to 'stifling'. (Plus, I was distracting myself by reading a fic online and I was very annoyed to be cut off in the middle of it.) Even lighting candles felt like adding too much heat. Being able to retrieve two paper fans from my room was another reminder of why Putting Things Away is a good thing. I then took my cue from The Boyo's collar and soaked a hand towel in iced water and draped it around my neck and shoulders.

Mum gave up pretty quickly and went to bed but since I'd been asleep all day ... well, I was grateful for two things. Buying an ereader cover with a light and the ice Mum had bought. Yes, I did wind up taking an ice bath after all. I dumped the ice and melted ice in the bath, ran a bit of 'cold' water in (which was warm enough to melt the ice immediately so I couldn't use much) and then I had to sit on the edge of the bath and cool myself off in stages because if I'd tried to sit in the bath right away, I think I would have sent myself into temperature shock.

Eventually I lay down on my bed with a cold towel draped over me and passed out. It did not feel like sleeping. I came around about 1 or 2a.m. when the power came back on (a trill of bright chirps from the electronics and the blissful whirrs of the fans) then conked out again. At some point the dog needed to go out. But really, I was out of it. About 5a.m. I woke up, noticing the change had come through and got up to open windows, enjoy the cool and try to get my head to stop aching. Also finish the stories I'd had open in tabs.

And today I slept in lovely 27C weather. Tomorrow should be the same. And Friday and Saturday ... look to be like yesterday. Two days. In a row. *whimpers* It's not even mid-January. I don't know how I'm going to deal with this.


P.S. I promise I won't spend all summer talking about the weather.
venetia_sassy: (MCR // Best smiles!)
Well, I could say that 2012 was a crappy year in which I spent much time feeling rotten and exploring the various kinds of headaches (my friend Rena: "I didn't know there were different kinds of headaches!" Me: "Ahaha, yeah, there are. And my body seems to want to take me on a tour of every single kind." My doctor also said it's unusual for someone to experience all the major kinds of headaches. There are times when I am happy to be unusual. This is not one of them.) This meant the year was spent with much brainfog and exhaustion, so there was little writing or substantial reading or even interesting cooking going on, much to my frustration. Also, my dog died.

However. Day to day life may have been crappy but good things did happen. Very good things.

*I saw My Chemical Romance live in concert. Twice!
*We went to Canberra to see the Renaissance exhibition at the National Gallery which was glorious. We also saw the Nurses at War exhibition at the Australian War Memorial.
*Went with friends to see Sir David Attenborough at the State Theatre - and he is utterly delightful. And we had an excellent dinner at Spanish restaurant beforehand.
*Went to the movies 4 times, including seeing The Avengers for the second time in a Gold Class cinema (wow, comfortable seats!)
*Went to GenreCon, my first con and had a great time. Plus, there was an afternoon tea for the Smart Bitches fans the week before.
*Had a couple of other enjoyable outings to the city, even if they did involve going to the allergist.
*Saw The Comedy of Errors, The Tempest and Twelfth Night performed by Sport for Jove.
*Even when I was feeling my worst, I still managed to leave the house every two weeks to go to the farmer's market and I enjoyed that. And for several months there was usually a dog show of some kind going on in the next field so there was puppy time as well.
*Didn't get to see my friends very often but I did get to see them.
*There were several secondhand booksales.

So hey, good things! And the headaches are improving so that's a good start for the new year. Also, fandom. Fandom is great. Bandom and Avengers and getting sucked into random things that make me go wait, what, what just happened? And the contribution fanfic makes towards keeping me sane during times of brainfog is considerable.

It was 39C today. I think that was all the coherence I had.
venetia_sassy: (101 Dalmatians // happy puppies!)
Roasted Cauliflower and Cheddar Soup.

That turned out well. I'm not usually a fan of creamy soups (the smoother they are, the less of them I can eat) but I didn't process it into oblivion, the bacon garnish was excellent and I almost finished my bowl. I used low-fat milk and a mix of cheddar and parmesan and it made for a very rich flavour. I cannot imagine using cream in this. Oof.

The bacon I used was a strip of the honey and port cured bacon we buy from the farmer's market. Oh yeah. It's a good trick - there's a stall that sells freshly cooked bacon and egg rolls using the bacon sold at another stall. First time Mum tried one of the rolls? We bought some of the bacon.

We were supposed to have dinner at Brother's place tonight. Actually we were supposed to have dinner there last Thursday but there was a big contract in the offing and when Mum saw him at Nephew #1's Christmas Concert, Brother was practically twitching with tension which is ... not like him. So Tuesday? Mum said that was fine but when she went to put it in her diary later she went, 'Er...' and called Brother to ask if he realised Tuesday was the 13th and thus his wedding anniversary.

When she called him again today, he said yes, he'd realised the same thing and how about this Thursday? Mum laughed and said didn't he feel like celebrating his anniversary with his Mum and sister? Brother said he thought he should probably take SiL out to dinner instead.

*snickers* Yes, just possibly.

Which mean I am going to be absolutely flattened by Friday. We're off into town tomorrow to see the allergist again. At least a two-hour round trip, mostly by bus this time since car and train were a hassle last time. Hopefully not as much time spent in testing this time. I am looking forward to seeing the city Christmas decorations. I can't remember the last time I was in town in December.

Thursday is the osteopath, another two-hour round trip and I'm usually exhausted and have a headache after an appointment.  Then dinner with Brother and family in the evening. At least with the kids it won't be too late.

I was hoping to see the girls this weekend. Maybe not. Sunday? Maybe. We'll see.

Pretty sure I posted this last year but it's still fabulous.

venetia_sassy: (101 Dalmatians // happy puppies!)
How did that happen?

Ihave been very fuzzy in the brain the last couple of weeks. There has been cooking and a book sale and market day but mostly fuzziness and time keeps slipping away from me. Very odd. But I went to High Tea in the city on Sunday with a group of romance readers, writers and bloggers, special guest Sarah Wendell of Smart Bitches, Trashy Books. That was fantastic, I had a great time. I also stayed too long and have been shatteringly exhausted since then but it was fun and Sarah was lovely and so funny (and currently in Australia while her family is in New Jersey. Ouch.)

Having barely recovered from this, I am off to GenreCon this weekend to revel in the many discussions and workshops. I also have a new parasol for the Saturday night banquet. Fun! (I hope. This is new territory for me.)
venetia_sassy: (SH // Gladstone oh no! dead dog?)

Today's visit to these doctor had these results: agreement that there are definite signs of improvement, suggestion that I try increasing the headache medication slightly and see if that helps without side effects, special referral to my osteopath so I can get partial Medicare rebates for my next few visits and the loss of nearly $500 from my bank account.

I did get about 80% of that back from Medicare but the cost of that special referral is ridiculous (as my doctor cheerfully agreed. He doesn't even charge anything over the mandated amount.) At least I didn't go shopping until afterwards? (Except at the dispensary. I added a large packet of raw cacao powder to my supplements. Good stuff.)

I bought Christmas presents. In October. Help.

Why are some Avengers Special Features only available on the Blu-Ray? I am very disappointed. I want the gag reel! But I do have the movie now. This is good.

I'm listening to The Hunger Games: Songs from District 12 and Beyond. I've yet to read the book or see the movie but I'm very much enjoying the music.

venetia_sassy: (MLP // shake it off)
... although I have often thought about it, but today is October 1st and I am finding that rather alarming (where the hell has the year gone?!) and I decided I had really better post something before another two months go by.

To sum up a good deal of the last few months and the reasons for my absence - headaches, headaches and more headaches. Are they cluster headaches? Maybe, maybe not. Are they migraines? Maybe, maybe not. Are they chronic tension headaches? Maybe, maybe not. At least the MRI ruled out Arnold–Chiari malformation, which could have required brain surgery. And I have undoubtedly developed an allergy to something which the August winds and September spring stirred up, leading to some spectacular sinus headaches, just to make things more fun. I AM FRUSTRATED. I've already had one Year of Headaches, thank you, I don't need another. (And at least those headaches were all of one sort, from one cause, and once that was found they were fixed! Oh bliss ...)

I am now on a medication (an anticonvulsant) which seems to be slowly making a difference (after the zombifying side effects wore off. That was fun.) The brain fog is slowly, slowly clearing. Things start to look up ...

Then I broke a tooth. Or rather, a bit of tooth fell out. Due to decay. Why exactly do I brush and floss and use mouthwash so thoroughly if this is still going to happen?! I was somewhat indignant at the dentist. I MAY LIKE SWEETS BUT I CLEAN MY TEETH VERY WELL, THANK YOU.

At least the violent stomach upset of this week waited until after the filling was done. Ginger ale and Saladas are now accompanied by tea and Nice biscuits. Yesterday there was grated apple and a plain cupcake. Today, grated cucumber and even peas and half a buffalo pie for dinner. (Stomach's still thinking about that one.)

Yes, this is my life right now. Overall it's very boring. Another reason I haven't been posting. But there have been some good points. I'll see if I can manage to post about them tomorrow. Or at least this week. Expect a certain amount of babble and incoherency if I do manage to post.

For a happy thing of today ... I saw a Painted Button quail in the garden! First one this year.
venetia_sassy: (101 Dalmatians // woeful puppies)
After a night of 'sleep' that largely involved being unable to sleep due to a nasty headache, I finally managed to get a few hours of rest before my alarm went off. I roused briefly then dozed off again - only to dream of being so exhausted that I couldn't manage to get out of bed, despite repeated efforts.

Then I actually woke up and hauled myself out of bed just to prove that I could. I didn't do much beyond sitting in a chair. But I did get out of bed.

I really hate dreams like that.


Jul. 17th, 2012 10:53 pm
venetia_sassy: (Words // levels of insanity)
Fucking exhaustion and headaches and brainfog. Fucking brainfog that steals my words and my voice and my abilities. How many times have I tried to post in the last few weeks and couldn't? I feel trapped in my own mind sometimes.


Jun. 25th, 2012 10:42 pm
venetia_sassy: (101 Dalmatians // woeful puppies)
So, the last couple of weeks ... brainfog, headache, brainfog, brainfog, headache, menstrual migraine, cramps, brainfog, headache, bursitis, brainfog, headache. Plus exhaustion.

I went to see my specialist today (Mum came in with me to remind me of what I was saying) and came away with a diagnosis of the latest headaches and some plans to tackle them and my majorly messed up sleep cycle.

To recap this year, health-wise:

Epic sinus headaches, caused by mould, solved by dehumidifier.

Pain radiating from my jaw and down my right side, caused by clenching my jaw (probably against the sinus headaches), solved by the osteopath.

Three week stomach virus that had to be waited out.

And followed by new and interesting headaches which were completely unaffected by Panadeine Forte or ibuprofen. Today's diagnosis?

Cluster headaches! Aka 'suicide headaches.' How ... encouraging.

(After listening to the doctor, Mum thinks my dad had cluster headaches for a few years early in their marriage. They were diagnosed as migraines but the medications didn't help at all. Hi, genetic component!)

I have to go off my current low blood pressure medication which might interact with the new preventative medication (my blood pressure was high today. First time that's happened) then start on the new one. Also back on melatonin to help my sleep cycle ...

Fuck it all. It's exhausting. Apart from a few highlights, I am not approving of this year at all.

Mum was talking tonight about emotional stress - Lady Muck is on the way out, probably this week. The Boyo's odd test results have finally resulted in a diagnosis of atypical Cushing's Disease. The cat had another brawl with a feral tom the other week. And she mentioned that it can be stressful living with me, which rather alarmed me. But she said, no, no, not living together, just seeing me ill. It's been sixteen years and I'm her daughter and she wants me to have everything and I'm stuck and she thinks about what I might have been able to do if I wasn't ill. At which point I had to turn away and try not to start crying and say that I try not to think about that because it's just too upsetting. Which it is. So I'm not going to think about it or I might go insane from frustration. Or become depressed again.

No thank you. Right now, I'd just take a remission of the headaches and an improvement in brain function and energy levels. That's not much, right?


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